Monday, July 7, 2014

These women

I am in a debate with my mate, I found this photo on his phone  and he said they were all the same women. 
Blasphemy I say! I showed him my saved copy and said / can you believe how similar their bodies all are?

I stand by; those are at least mostly different women.

A third party suggests they are just fully airbrushed.

Thursday, July 3, 2014


If all the virii we eradicated from humans through vaccines, continued to evolve until finally taking over the entire plant population (perhaps this is the reasonings for dandelions spread?? Hmm?)
What would happen to our food supply if the dandelions DNA became parasitic and adaptable to be host of any other plant system including foods we eat?

Ladies first

Is this a suggestion or command?
I work in a store on a strip mall. Our dumpsters are to the left and customer parking right in front, when approaching my store from the left, I reached the door maybe a mere second before a man. I swung the door open, and then, rather than walking into the man rudely, held the door open for him- and his response?
Not "thankyou" as it would be deemed ride for a women to not reply to to an opened door, regardless of the sex tag, but "ladies first - ALWAY" he specified. I looked at him with an odd smile. Am I to wAlk around him? Thus closing the door on me and him partly before he catches the door I have already opened so HE can be the opener of doors? Am I not doing it right?!
Is he to take the door from me first, so I can grab a quick feel of his sweaty armpit on my shoulder or head?
I just kept staring with an odd smile until he reciprocated the awkward smile accompanied by a laugh and walked in before - but that awkward 30 seconds or so really gave me pause for the general understanding of women first.

Is it just a friendly saying? Or an ingrained belief - and why?
Some reasons I've heard from women include "the door is too heavy for me" and "we deserve the door opened for us. We carry babies after all"
"I just love being doted on"

Do you think no man finds the door too heavy? I assure you not all women will find ANY door too heavy, let alone the average door.
*i* might have carried a baby but not All women ever will. And if you factor in transgenderism, some men have.

But even if you don't want to factor in transgenderism; I know there is debates about if he uses his uterus he's still a woman ; I'm not here to debate that, today.  But - what if you can't tell or mistaken the sex? If a woman identifies as a woman, but bears a penis and manly features, would that woman be mocked and left to fend the door for herself, even if she was one of the weaker ones, or instantly included in all men's perceptions of WOMEN. Not some women, but an entire wave of xx chromosomal eRthlings.

What if a man was simply not strong enough to open these doors some women claim to be SO. HEAVY.
Would they be mocked? Would they feel embarrassed if a strong woman offered to hold the door for them?
Would they refuse from shame?
Because I've had WOMEN decline my physical assistance simply because of my vagina.

I've noticed lately sexism seems more accepted than racism.
I can't wait for the world in which neither are acceptable.

Thursday, June 26, 2014


I've got my a-game on the beginning of this here mosquito season. I'm ahead 12-4.
I just got bit on my ass. I can't see or feel it so it only itches if I touch it which hardly even counts but, it makes 4.
And I have an entire ecosystem brewing in my house.
I leave the doors open all summer long when possible.
Ladybugs hibernated in my high top kitchen cieling all winter, while spiders grew in the corners.. I don't have the heart to kill most bugs anymore.. Scared centipedes I threatened into a corner demanding it to freeZe until I left. 
I had it trapped in a corner.:(
I was so scared of it but I didn't want to kill it:(
I did just kill an earwig though. And honestly think eating squirrel sounds pretty ok. But I vowed to never eat any new animals because I really think eating animals is gross. I see carcasses on the road and think - that's essentially what you eat. I remind myself of them while I eat. I think it is so disgusting. And yet I crave its texture and flavours. 
I don't think its based on nutrients though. I feel always I have surplus even when I'm tired; it's just an imbalance. 
I seriously fuxking digress; I've got this entire system that I play god in; primarily creating a mosquito free environment. Spider survival is key. And bees terrain should be separated ; never kill always remove.

I seriously believe messes in my house reproduce when nobody is watching.

And that birth exists at an intersection with another ejection?
As a newborn of any species ejects its vessel of growth, so too is a debris that once was a part of another ejecting from another reality. 

I'm just a social-loon.

When you don't agree with people who feel right ...Do you just avoid the issue?
Try to change them?
Try to change yourself? (If even just your own understandings)
Attempt to manipulate them into getting help?
Insist they need help?

This can go for anything, off the cuff - abusive relationships like the song in the other post, (Lana del something? Hit feels like a kiss?)or, mental illness- like the guy who believes in shadow boxing..
Can both parties be right?
I think if people are ok with being hit, that's fine. I don't think all violence is wrong, however, even if I feel its their choice, I admit I still think they will eventually, with growth, feel violence is wrong. I don't think it could be healthy long term. But I wonder if I'm wrong. I do believe experiencing pain has made me stronger - but for me I hurt myself so much to have added intentional pain would seem dehumanizing. But I think if I wasnt so clumsy and hurting myself I might enjoy more pain. Some people find it arousing, why not just straight enjoyable? Or beneficial if not even enjoyable. I mean I don't always like healthy foods I eat but they make me feel good.
With shadow boxing example personally I think at least some if not all "crazy" people are seeing into other worlds. They may genuinely be crazy because they can't overlap properly (think; fringe when the two buildings overlapped and them and their doubles were all intwined) but I also think some can line up well and just see more than others and still be seen as crazy and part of me wants to go alongside the shadow boxing side then part of me thinks; if people are legit in need of mental help I don't want to influence them not to.
And then I think, what if crazy? Coz I understand shadow boxing. Explicitly. 
I can separate realities but I find that its not just MY reality that blends but that the plane we all live together on is already divided... We are all living in a multi plane.  It's just the more planes you live on or witness make you a little crazier. 

I think when one "goes with their gut" they are simply seeing the chess board of another reality for a moment they can't explain and utilizing that snapshot to making the game theirs.

Monday, June 23, 2014

I can't think of what to say here. Height advantage?

Is looking at one another Eye to eye a sign of respect?
But should the shorter person raise or taller person lower?
Or should they have a more vertical relationship? 
Would you have a growth spurt willingly to be as tall as another?
If you step back a few feet and can look each other in the eye although on a slanted incline; is it just the ease of gaze?
I changed my perspective (from outward to inwards for just the first sentence.) ...Now I've overthought this. ..

I think its really important to have an easy gaze between all conversers to ensure all parties are equally understood, and therefore respected.

Secondary part..
I've moved on to wondering if an xx chromosome with the say, first x "on" can  switch x's and if so, if they could present an entirely different structure, and also if you could have partial of each x?
Because my knee has since 9 when I bumped my knee on the stairs been affecting the growth of my calf and they never lined up, the Achilles tendon has always built to the side not center. So when I broke my ankle this released the poor hold to open the door for a proper form (I'm still working on, good basis) that's not clear is it my Achilles tenon broke and it killed or pulled out the whole leg muscle, it was like a fresh opportunity and I set my ankle properly (the bulging side tendon caused it to grow at an angle) better?

It makes so much sense in my head.
I just can't imagine I'm a rarity in this case; muscles are not utilized properly. Humans are weapons with skill society is in place to keep us from finding our full strength. 
:. I laughed at work the other day and then couldn't stop because I sounded exactly like the lunatic was in my head.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014


its pretty unanimously agreed that wishing a person had as miscarriage or stillbirth is an unfathomably inhumane thing to say.
and yet, i see continuously around me how easy it flies off the tongue to wish karma's repayment.
this confuses me because, presuming both the person wishing a specific karmic fate and the person wishing a generalized karmic fate had the same feeling and situation it would theoretically work out to the same meaning, if the specific karmic fate wisher was "correct" in their karmic hopes.

its also pretty clear to me that just because someone wishes for a miscarriage does not mean a miscarriage will happen.
although i do believe in mind over matter, so perhaps i see potential but the karmic bestowing wisher would have to wish harder for a stillbirth than the karmic receiver wished for a healthy baby. i really don't think this would be a likely scenario.

however, say it was an occurrence - perhaps karma is actually intended to lift people... theyve made mistakes, and karma is there to offer them the same mistake again to make the correct choice.
loss is sometimes, sadly, and unfortunately right.
i wish someone had wished a miscarriage for me. i believe my third pregnancy was an opportunity to rectify past wrongs; i needed to stand up for myself. i needed to be in control of myself and not allow anyone to take advantage over me in that moment. my weakness were shown and i held strong.

if i wished someone a happy and easy life, that could be as torturous for a soul with many lessons to learn, keeping them from being able to learn because they are manipulated instead to a happy reality, as a person who wants a baby being wished a miscarriage. because we can't see what would best benefit each lives, to wish a miscarriage could truly work to be wishing a person a very fulfilling life they may not have otherwise had without said miscarriage.

i just like to wish for what is meant to be.
its not always good.. its not always happy.. and thats right. 

so any readers i may have *fingers crossed* is wishing any karmic retribution acceptable? or is it best left to the fates?

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Because when I get that feeling...

If two people in a public place that you happened to be witness too had that sexual feeling they publicly and physically expressed; by any means... oral, handsies, genitals whatever.
Would you watch ?

Let's say you're on a crowded bus (or a not crowded bus?) and they were close enough that they could just almost be touching you... Would you get up and move? Would you look away ?
Is there a socially acceptable reaction?

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Would you rather?

Be enslaved for hard labour for your lifetime


Locked up for the rest of your life


be told repeatedly that you are something (or someone) you are not until you no longer trust yourself ?

Thursday, November 21, 2013


What if north american societies depiction of crazy is really the key to regeneration; would you want to be crazy or sane?

First time

The first of everything is always a novelty.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013


If BBC added randomizing feature sizes (like you know how they have a-z, then aa,ab,ac,ad,ae... Ba, bb,bc,bd,-bz,ca-cz,,zz,aaz-azz-zzz,azzz-azzzz...They can continue on indefinitely without repeating a combination. I don't know who they is or what they are combining but applied to generic faces----)
Would that make it better?
Would you notice each difference?
Would you notice SOME difference?
What percentage?

Are you a better person because you can tell bcyldjrbv apart from shush dh?
(Look^^ we've evolved to include spaces!)
What does it mean when you can't see HF without seeing he. Even though they have the same amount of connections as any other combination...
Their appearances may be too close to discern.

Sunday, November 3, 2013


How long will you keep food in the fridge PAST edibility?
Yknow when food gets to that point where you are like ehh... I *might* consider eating that- how long would you keep something in the fridge after that?

I've heard comments of fuzzy dishes in the fridge, and I have seen moldy products in fridges before.
It's like one of the grossest things to me.

Do you think this is a problem with society, due to availability to food? And demands placed that make it difficult to consume food to functionly benefit.

Or is it a problem with an individual being wasteful, or ignorant to food shortages?

Is this not a problem to anyone else ? Does it happen to anyone else?
How often does it happen to you, or that you see?

My friends told me she spent 35$ on groceries for about 10 days worth of food.
I would be licking my fridge and floors for nutrients with what I would manage to buy with that money.
And yet I wonder if she ever has bad food to throw away?