My 15 year old Co OP "coworker" told me that fillings, when made of lead, would be like little satellites for signals and they would basically get really faint radio signals.

Sounds legit.

So I'm thinking, if you combine ; lead in your body (most older homes had lead paint ;anything prior to 70's. That's a lot of lead in the air and dust, that I'm sure we've all accumulated enough over time to possibly be catching radio signals 

And I have to interject my thoughts here because.... Aren't frequencies... Perspectives in a way, like different realms of existance?

So I wonder if its really the ears that hear... Or the alignment of the ears that open up the senses?

Oh and;;; I digress. So, maybe "earworms" are neither in your head, not mini worm holes TJ when that music was playing ( UNLESS that's precisely what wifi is) and our bodies have become transmitors, but weak still.  But actually just radio signal waves. 

And because I am smoking a little something called "rock star" I want to add; when I get into debates like this in real life I am told they can't debate me because its not logical but I think that's just poor debating. If it doesn't make sense than you should be actually unable to unwind it and spell out my flaws rather than just say its so flawed it can't be argued.

Yes or no?

Why I under achieve

Like, should you enable your child to be gifted if by doing so they will increase in liklihood of being an underachiever?

For me I focus on what I can do, when I can do it, and dismiss the rest. I used to be more dismissive. But then I was taught how to be stressed out (at a seminar for how to destress. :() and realized how much shit I was dismissing, and spent years trying to be a better me that didn't dismiss shit and was always completing things.

So then I would do an awesome first 7 steps, and have to finish the last three steps in this structures time line and, I wasnt ready, but now I knew I couldn't dismiss it, so j finished and ruined it.

Or I wouldn't finish it, but I was so stressed out and focused on it I couldn't move on - to be able to come back to it.

Might have been my age too, I guess stress would have eventually been learnt.

It was grade 9, and I was very emotionally delayed. 

What I do as a remedy; let go of things I cannot finish. If it's meant for me to finish, it will wait. If not, I know I gave each project a great start. I still want to finish everything. I have thousands of things I can see every day waiting for me to finish them. Toys to be fixed, puppets to be made; supplies bought, something prepared, then I'm Distracted and its incomplete. I have A crocheted foot in my nightstand.. A pink panther Christmas present from last year, or birthday. I don't remember. But it's waiting. It's not going anywhere. I work very hard to not stress about it not being complete. I start so many things;( current projects once started are pushed to complete; I always complete: cleaning the kitchen and doing a load of laundry as initializing, getting the ball rolling.

Usually I am tired by then though.

I can push through; though I then become hyper focused and irrational at interruptions...

And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.. To everyone who has ever been on the other end of my irrationalization , and I am so sorry ecausd, I still haven't learned anything from it.

I still don't know how to BOTH handle the disruptions, and, get everything done?

And I pick one. Then I pick the other. And so on top of being irrational; I am also unpredictable.

And I avoid people because of it.

And I push people away because of it.

Or I communicate the shit out of my every thought.

Genetic molecule bumping???

So sometimes I feel ok I pretty much always feel like my skin is a .. Fitting around my skeleton.

So the muscles attach it, we all know, right?

But it's like the muscles attach the skin how it's pushed on. From the outside. So I grew up being raised from the outside. It was like they knew how I should look so they pushed all the pieces on in the right places and it was just supposed to be right but it was sloppy and not properly adhered and needed to be broken, then rebuilt from the inside. 

And I'm doing it, but its weird it's not KNOWN its saying currently my body; which looks as body like as every other body feels like it has a muscle pressure curve a degree off from where I FEEL like it should be, but I have no proof. And I have to apply a lot of pressure to alter it and sometimes it makes me feel funny but I don't feel RIGHT. I feel misplaced. This is the only thing that helps. 

 And I feel almost whole again, after so many breaks. 

But I never know. And I never have anyone to talk to about how do you know if your hair line is right?

And who would believe I alter my lines?

It's not that I never take chances it's just not knowing how far you can go.

Good luck!

When I'm drunk and cooking with my toaster oven I just run my hand along the wheels to turn everything up press start and hope i remember when it's done. 

Portal births part two. Such shame:/

One time, when I was pregnant and debating aborting- oh god I can't even remember how it happened but we were walking about the fetus and other shit and I had this weird thought about giving birth to a maggot (my house was in a really bad state - couldn't keep up with cleaning and it was  constant struggle just to keep it live able, primary reason for aborting/,could not take care of what already existed!!!!) anyways, then I see this little white thing on my phone and even though I am aware its a never before arm pinkish odd looking maggot - I squished it and said I didn't think it was a bug but I was so scared it had crawled out my crotch 

Then dh made a joke about how i had just given birth to a maggot.

And I was like OMG.

My house was filthy. I have much shame.

Significant improvements have been made. 

Because abortion.